One Heavy Heart!

My heart is heavy and filled with pain,
its no wonder I'm sick, I'm standing in the rain.
I'm all alone and I just want to go home.
But i can't move
I'm stuck.
I hear you say you love me but
I don't give a flying fuck!
You ruined me with your games and ever since then,
I haven't been the same.
It tears me apart just hearing your name.
You broke my heart and I'll never understand why,
It hurt so bad that all I could do was cry.
Just when I think I'm over you,
And I'm coming back to life,
You pop back up causing me suffering and strife.
I've suffered for too long,
And I strive to do my best,
But the day you left my heart was put to the test.

I feel like my world is crumbling
beneath my feet,
And there is no net to break my fall.
It takes a beautiful soul to survive,
And I just don't know if I am cut out for it.
I'm suffering.
I just don't know what to do
I'm falling apart.
I feel like a shattered dream,
that's never showed its face to another being.
I'm standing still, but I can barely breathe.
My heart is pounding...
I cant see my face...
I am just a blur.
I cant even think about love, it makes my head stir.
It shakes me up, leaving me dizzy and confused.
god damn you I hate being used!
You stole my heart, and crushed it in front of me,
Like I never mattered.
Leaving me in pieces torn and tattered.
I used to know about a thing called love.

But now I am just a torn soul, my body aches as my heart breaks.
I need to put myself back together, but I'm out of body glue.
I am cold inside, all because of you!
I'm like a bunch of ice cubes, piled not so neatly in a broken glass.
The way you loved and left me, showed that you never cared.
YOU BROKE ME!!!!!
So now when I think of love I get scared.
Scared that if I let myself fall in love,
It will happen again....
If it does that would be my end!
It would crush me to the core,
Causing my heart to shatter for sure!

Just to clear things up the poem above is one that I found in my old diary, I wrote it to myself about my ex-boyfriend..... i feel pretty exposed sharing it but i thought i needed to be said.

Krissy my loverly wifey!

We are joined at the hips with a special kind of glue.
The kind that lasts forever, the way that best friends do.
The seal can never be broken, for the bond we have is true.
Together for many years, through all of the good times,
and all of our tears, you have always been there for me.
So many times you've helped me see.
You are my other half, as close as best friends can be.
I'll love you until the end, as long as the road may be.
Just remember, I'll always be there anytime you need me.
So here's to the future and whatever it may bring,
I just wanted to say.....
Thank you for everything!

Love

Love is something you cherish forever.
It runs through your veins and into your soul.
It possesses every inch of your being without your knowledge.
Love gives you endless reasons to smile, laugh,
And live each day like its your last.
Love is your air supply it gives you life.

insecure people.....

I had a recent experience that made me think a thought,
that i feel i need to share! So here it is.........
If a man is so insecure about himself, that he is jealous of a woman (that woman being me) then he really must not be much of a man!

I do have big balls and I am really out there.
But I also know who I am I will never change myself to please someone else,
and i dont care if people dont like it. This is me!
Learn to love me or leave me alone! :)

morning sex!

Morning sex is the best!
Its a wonderful way to start off a brand new day.
Talk about a spring in your step!
Waking up to the salute... :)
It gets your blood pumping!!!

Dearest Husband

With all of my heart, in every way.
Will I love you, until the end of my days.
You are my heart, my soul and my breath.
And with that I promise, to love you until my death.
You are so amazing, you have so much soul.
You make my every days, pure gold.
With every kiss and every touch, you just tease me so much.
I'll always want more of you, because i can never have enough.
I just cant help it, that I love you so much.
♥ always,
The wife

David

You are always searching for an answer,
And looking for a cure.
That's how I know your heart is pure.
A friendly smile,
A loving touch.
All part of why I love you so much.
Full of curiosity,
Wisdom and more.
It sends a shock through my body,
And exits my pores!
Sweating in excitement now,
I have to hear more
So much life and spirit,
Makes me feel younger each time I hear it.
Living the dream without any fear,
Doesn't seem so far away from here.