I Dare To Dream

For once in my life,

I can actually say ,

That I like who I am today.

I don't have to pretend or even care,

What people think,

They can think what they dare!

There is no facade,

Just me.

I don't care if I come off as odd.

I dare to be different,

I dare to dream.

No matter how big,
My dreams may seem.

Back To The Sex Talk!

Most people exercise I SEXERCISE! Not only is it fun but it burns more calories then the normal exercise. I've noticed that when I exercise alone i get bored and stop, but when I sexercise I never get bored and never want to stop! :) I am a freak of nature, I know but I like what I like! I have the sex drive of a man. I might as well put it to good use!

Fact!

It is truly amazing to me that people are shocked by some of the things that I say and do. I don't think before I speak. I just let it fly! I don't reserve my thoughts or feelings I don't feel I should have to hold anything back. I am very aware of who I am and what I stand for. I wish more people had a better understanding of themselves, and were secure enough to appreciate my openness for it's a huge part of me! love me or hate me I will not change!

THE BOOBAGE!

So after giving birth to my daughter (2 years ago) I guess I was to busy to notice, or in denial or something. I don't know? But the boobage issue has really started to get to me. I was always a tiny little thing and now I have some killer curves! I hate shopping for bras so I put it off, and put it off... and then I realized it was becoming a problem when I had to wear 2 bras to keep the girls in! (one under wire and a sports bra on top of it) And trying to figure out your bra size is no walk in the park either! I had one hell of a time! By the time I gave up and decided I needed professional help I was ready to pull my hair out! So I called a local department store and the poor girl that I talked to was so sweet and very sympathetic, she had gone through the exact same thing so she understood how I was feeling. She asked me for my measurements, so I gave them to her... and then she did the math to figure out what size I was, the first thing to come out of my mouth when she told me was "holy shit! no way!" i had apparently jumped 2 cup sizes. (so we stayed on the phone for 15 minutes laughing about the boobage issues we both had)... And its no wonder i was wearing 2 bras! my advise to those who are having this issue is "if the girls are too big for the bra your in, don't be afraid to get help finding ones that fit. it just might be a surprise to you too."

Love Spell

You said you needed me,
You lied and cheated me.
You stole my heart,
And made me cry.
After you left,
Inside I died.
Empty and alone,
I tried to move on.
I didn't get far,
For I was all alone.
You put my heart through hell,
By casting your love spell.
Trapped in the dark,
Stranded and cold.
As time past by,
Your shit got old!

Random

Something as beautiful as the ocean,
That's deep, wide, and blue.
Couldn't come close to my love for you!
You can't compare beauty to love.
It is like making a wish,
That you know won't come true

That Thing Called Love

It's so amazing,
I can't believe it's real.
The pain is gone.
It's that thing called love,
That I feel.
Can this be it or am I dreaming?
I can only wish he's not plotting or scheming.
To play with one's heart,
Is not very kind.
Playing mind games from the start,
And heartache you will find.

So be true to your love,
For it is a gift sent from above.
It is only when you lose it.
That you will find,
It's that thing called love
that will last us a lifetime.

Random

Look into my eyes,
And tell me how you feel.
Don't be a fool,
Just keep it real.
If I like what you say,
It will keep me from walking
The other way.

The day I met you

I remember the day I met you,
Even though I didn't have a clue.
You gave me a friendly smile,
And then we talked for awhile.
When I looked into your eyes,
I began to see,
That you are far more,
Then I thought you would be.
You gave me friendship, respect, and love.
You glowed like an angel,
Sent from above.
I was not looking for love,
But it is true.
Love was what I found,
The day I met you!

choking on love!

My heart is beating overtime,
can't seem to get you off my mind.
I've been thinking about you all day long,
in my heart I know that something is wrong.

I wish I didn't feel this way,
for I am cold,
Untouchable and unkind.
You made me this way,
and expected me to be fine.
I wasn't...
I lost all hope.
Almost dying I started to choke.

missing you

It's a cold and rainy night, and I just don't feel right.
My heart hurts, like it's never hurt before.
All because you left, you just walked out my door.
I know you'll be back, but I can't wait to see you again!
So I'll pour my heart out on paper, through this bleeding pen!